I am not a Buddhist, a Hindu, a Taoist, a Christian, or any other singular belief system. I am all of them. I believe in a power bigger than anything that has or ever will exist. I don’t believe in a benevolent God or an angry God. I believe in science and I believe there is an incredible amount of stuff we just don’t know.
I’m ok with not knowing everything
But for some reason, I do believe that there is a method to all the madness going on in this world right now. Even though it feels like the planet, nature and all its inhabitants are being ripped apart and all the beliefs and cultural order we hold dear as humans are being summarily destroyed, what it is I don’t know.
I do my best to be open, and honest, and caring, accepting, and understanding. I express gratitude and appreciation. I pray to this power I know, this awareness of what’s beyond. Asking out loud seems to bring serendipitous results, constant answers to my prayers surprise me daily.
These prayers are beneficial to me, however, I am unclear that they have the power to change anything for anyone else. It’s that (I am responsible for my own destiny thing).
Something I am struggling with is how to cope with and even help with the appalling inhumanity that is becoming the norm in this country. I vote I speak out, I participate, I do my best to love those I disagree with but somehow it’s not enough and my heart hurts. So once again I have started drawing.
The simple act of drawing has been my therapy, my meditation since my early 20’s and now it is manifesting as pointillism or stippling in pen and ink. These tiny minute dots of ink are placed together on the page to create an image. It’s a long process and it requires slow constant repetitive mark-making. It clears my mind and calms my spirit. It occurred to me that this could be used as a prayer, meditative prayer. Just as the Tibetan monks who create the beautiful sand mandalas and chant as they go, I can send out prayers of peace into the universe as I make dots. Whether it manifests anywhere or not is not my concern, it manifests its effects in me which then transmits to those I come in contact with.
As I think about these drawings I have decided that they themselves should be peaceful images and I have chosen flowers as a subject. Each flower image is created from thousands of individual dots, just as the people on this plant are individual dots within the whole. Each one adds something to the mix. We all make a contribution which manifests in the completed fabric of our culture. We choose to be a positive or a negative contribution and the ripple effect is real. Every action causes a reaction.
So I share these drawing in hopes of passing the peace. Nothing more than that.
Thank you for reading. I appreciate your comments, however, this is not a forum for discussion on politics, religion, or hatred and I will delete comments that are not appropriate and peaceful.